Thinking about worms
Date: 25/03/2024
Lately I’ve been thinking more and more about how lovely it is to be alive. Maybe it is because I am growing up… but I feel like every day feels so fresh and new, so many wonderful things to witness, I love how mundane things shimmer in the sunlight that is my newly improved brain. So cheesy right? I hope you are enjoying life this way! I never knew it was possible to enjoy it so much, just existing! It might sound like I am exaggerating but I believe it might be the opposite, I struggle to put it into words… It is a feeling that is humming in the back of my heart, but sometimes it overcomes me and it pools in my eyes, blurring my vision.
Today was a very rainy day, the last time we had a rainy day was a couple weeks ago. I had asked people in the lab what they like about the rain and I got all kinds of answers: it is cozy, the sound is nice, it smells good… so I made an effort to notice these things. I’d like to ask you too how you react to a rainy day, I know you love them! I have noticed a couple things myself; when it is dewy the ends of trees collect little droplets that reflect the light in a very pretty way that reminds me of Christmas time when they are decorated with glass, the second thing I have noticed is the worm population! It is thriving!!! The last time it rained I took a long time to get to work because I had to move them out of the way so people wouldn’t step on them, I looked silly and got soaked but it was so much fun to look at them and play for a bit in the rain! Maybe that is it; maybe it is fun to get soaked and be cold for a bit as long as I am playing. I looked forward to doing the same today, but to my surprise there were no worms! Ah! My lovely source of joy and wonder! Where did you go? I realised that this time I had gone out after midday so the birds already got them all! Somedays you are the early bird but no-one talks about being the early worm! Poor worms!!
I still enjoyed today! I have established a new rule, and that is that it is okay to be a little late to get to work if it means I get to enjoy the walk there. I stopped to stare at a crow who was very friendly, I stopped to talk to someone I knew, I stopped to look at the water running into a sewer. These are things that are worthwhile; things I do not want to miss, things that I won’t be able to enjoy forever. Since I started doing this, I have started feeling a lot more present; it is okay to get lost in the moment, is there anything more important than that?